Day 1 at Tahoe

So. I got about…1,000 words written on the car trip up here, oh yeah. *shrugs* I may not have a lappy, but my dad pretty much always lets me use his. :)

I did some timed writings with the computer clock. I watched the hands and started from the start of a minute.

We’ve been leeching off the neighbors’ wireless Internet connection for e-mail and such, and I’ve hopped on CP a couple times. It would be better though if I stayed off it all together. For a couple reasons: a) I get less work done b) um. I’m in TAHOE!!! I shouldn’t be online!!!

Make sense? Ok. So, Day 1’s stats:

First Timed Writing Session:
First 10 Minutes: 414
Second 10 Minutes: 374 (*points accusingly at parents* they were talking to me :P)
Third 10 Minutes: 370 (ug. No excuse that time)

Bit of a break here. *woot* Grandma’s cat didn’t kill me when I tried to pet her!!! In fact, she rubbed against my leg. O_o Oo…



Second Timed Writing Sessions:
First Five Minutes (I had toast on :P): 168

And you know? I just wrote for the rest of the night…:P

Mood Music: Kevin Max – Platform (at the moment…will add what I am listening to at the end of my writings :)) Tobymac-Gone
Current Mood: Determined. *ninja*

Buahaha!!

Writing more Nano today, woohoo! :woot: However once again I decided to start at midnight. O:) After playing my computer game for an hour, not saving it and it blowing up. Putting me pretty much back at the beginning. Not cool. <_<

Anywho, today's stats:

First 10 Minutes: 428 words
Second 10 Minutes: 438

Haha! And this time I have with me a secret weapon. *shifty eyes* A clean room! Just kidding. A Mountain Dew which I will totally regret when I try to sleep...but hey! I got a new book. B) Oh! And I have Wheat Thins. B)

Third 10 Minutes: 507
Fourth 10 Minutes: 424
Fifth 10 Mintues: 407 (stopped the clock early. It's almost 2am for crying out loud, I would prefer not to wake the parents to the sound of a timer and make them think the fire alarm is going off or something...)

another Mountain Dew can later...ok, so I decided not to do Mountain I grabbed...a Diet Coke. Guess what? I hate diet stuff...-_- Nevermind, we had Pepsi! *woot* I hope I didn't wake anyone up with going outside to get a soda at 1:45am...*unsure*

anyways!

Sixth 10 Minutes: 386 (and thus 'tis proven: Pepsi is not as affective as Mountain Dew)

SECONDS HOUR:
First 10 Minutes: 411

Ok, I went until I hit 24,000 but didn't do anymore timed writings...

So...thus are today's stats...

Ok...I'm wiped...

Music Through Entire Writing Crusade Tonight: Kevin Max-Imposter
Current Mood all Night: On the edge of sleep and caffene high...

Yet another day...

Comic of the Moment

...but with writing done! *woot* Yay!!!

Did more timed sessions:
First 10 Minutes: 388 words (give me a break it's 12:30am)
Second 10 Minutes: 478 (how did that happen?)
Third 10 Minutes: 474 (oh yeah! *pom*)

I took a short break here, made my bed, got some milk, made some sort of 1am snack pontificatin' when to practice piano tonight even though it would be 1am in 5 minutes...

ok. I didn't make my bed, I didn't even leave my desk. Or do any pontification. Meghan's already going to be ready to kill me tomorrow at piano.

Hm...I am beginning to wonder if this is cause for concern...

Fourth 10 Minutes: 382 (bleah...<_<)

I'll edit this post if I end up writing anything more...*zz*

Droppin' out?

Ok, so not "dropping out" exactly, I mean there really isn't a way to drop out. When you drop out, you can't get back in until next time.

I have until 11:59 November 30 to not "drop out." However I seriously feel zero motivation for this now.

It might be a cockiness. *shrugs* Dunno...hm...

Behind...

So, here I think I am doing really well, ok? Nope. I'm behind by 10,000 words. *sighs* Oh well, I WILL catch up, I CAN catch up and I shall. >:)

Anyways, before I begin on this long motiviation rant here are my stats for today:

First 30 Minute Session
First 10 Minutes: 455 words
Second 10 Minutes: 413
Third 10 Minutes: 548 (I think...)

Second 30 Minute Session
First 10 Minutes: 402
Second 10 Mintues: 379
Third 10 Minutes: 459 (I think again. <_< I need to start paying more attention where I stop and start in between sections...)

and the rest of any writing I did was just...bleah. :P



Current Music: Michael Buble - Feeling Good
Current Mood: Determined

And that's it for today...

Words Written Today: 4,842
Total Word Count: 16,142

Yay! I'm caught up! *dances* And *pause* woah...I wrote tomorrow's too. *blink* Or today's, hehe. Good, that way I can do the homework I neglected today...

Anywho, there is today's update. :P Thing. :P

Current Music: Shine-Jaci Velasquez
Current Mood: Irritated-
Reason for Mood: I have finally hit a "I don't know what to do next" in my NaNo. I could make it sad again because it is turning corny. <_< But, well...*sigh* and I am so sick and tired or beating my characters up but don't know what else to do. *unsure* I might incorporate some more sci-fi elements with it being futuristic once they're in Canada. :P

Also a believer...

...and then I saw her face, now I'm a believer, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah..."

had to see that one coming...:P

Anyways.

I tried the ten minute thing too:
1 10 Minutes: 464 words
2 10 Minutes: 605 words (doesn't count though because I started and stopped that ten minutes more ;)
3 10 minutes: 519
4 10 minutes: 308

oh seriously I am GOING to write more. *ninja* But I am so tired...and my goal was to catch up to at least Mangy tongiht. Which I SHALL!!!

Ok, I'm done with my rant. :P

Cracked again...

Yeah. Re-writing *ducks from Mangy* another small section of NaNo. hlaf the size of the last one though. I wanted to introduce another character, who I will later but I recently introduced Ian.

Dude, I love the name Ian...

Anyways. :P

I tweaked it majorly because it sounded really, really sexist...and that bugged me. Now instead of Ava rescuing Andrew (might as well shoot him or something <_<) I had her run into Ian, her brother who will help her. :)

I like Ian. He rocks.

*in shock*

I think for the first time I am not going to be able to NaNo today. O_O

I'll have to tomorrow, because I am swamped tonight. *whimper*

10,000 WORDS!

WOOHOO!!! *dances*

YEAH!!

This is so cool! I'm so happy and I ended right on schedule and on a happy note. *wub*

But kind of stumped how I'm going to drag this out for another 40,000 words...I mean. Well, *blink* doesn't "so and so got captured" get old after a while?

I'm not sure what to do next. I was planning for an end of them escaping to Canada or something. :\ But that would come too soon.

What I could do is have them move to a different state or Country (Yay Canada!!! hehe, I'm Canadian, it's gettin' in there somehow...) and have them work on US stuff from there. Hm. *unsure*

*cries*

I'm in tears! Literally!

Oh my word I want Ava to have a happy ending so badly! I feel so awful, like I am reading and unguilty for the words I put her through.

But oh my word I hope good will come of it.

Here is what she is feeling:
"...save me! call my name and save me from the dark...bid my blood to run, before I come undone..."
--Evanescence and

"Prison gates won't open up for me, on these hands and knees I'm crawlin' oh I reach for you. Well, I'm terrified of these four walls, these iron bars can't hold my soul and oh I need is you. And oh I scream for you.

I'm fallin'..."
--Nickelback

:(

But she will be saved! She won't have a hopeless end! She will not live in torment and pain and suffering forever and she won't be betrayed by her friends.

*cries some more* I've never been so emotional writing something. :(

Really Poetic

Wow. You know, maybe I haven't been writing enough poetry. Here is a line I just wrote now:


"Warmth spread through my frozen spirit, and the candle of hope re-lit in my dreary soul."

And thus, the rest of tonight's quota shall be written in a poetic rhythm of depth.

First time

Well, for the first time my NaNo has ceased a steady, continous flow. No, I don't have writer's block, however I am not quite sure what to write next.

I am about to introduce an Al, and not sure what his character is going to be like quite yet. I wish I had another entry for another happy scene, however, well, I just can't stuff happy or sad in there. I need to write and see what comes out...

Doing good though, still meeting the daily quota..

Happy

YES!!! A happy scene! Oh my word I almost cried as I wrote it, I was so happy. *wub*

Well, I have half hour to write...500 more words. Shouldn't be too hard if I quit doddling. I'm really into it even though I hadn't planned this far and now I am kind of just making it up as I go along.

But...I discovered something!

Ava is 18, meaning she was sixteen at the beginning in the Prologue. I had thought of her around 30 to begin with. But when she was with Dara, I decided to make Dara and Andrew parent figures. I am happy with this, and it is a relief from that painfully squeezed out romance I have been attempting with my ISOS.

Remind me never to try that again.

Well...

I am just starting today's word count. I should be doing homework, but I couldnt' resist.

I am writing the last violent scene in my NaNo for a while and will be relieved when it's over. I'm introducing Andrew, not part of a rebellion, but he thinks up his own, more subtle, ways to resist. He is willing to be a part of the community and prefers not to become dead. He uses his smarts instead of reckless bravery.

I gots my mood music on for this scene and then WOOHOO...I'll be *blink* stuck. Haven't planned any further than this scene. :-
Current Music: Evanescence - Taking Over Me
Current Mood: One step happier than melancholy

New template

Changed my layout! You like? Eh? Eh?

...

So I still have a lot of tweaking to do. I need to change the ugly banner, and...so I might track down another one...

Exhausted...

Well, I am exhausted from hectic week, the thought of how disapointed my piano teacher will be because I have practiced piano only twice this week including tonight, and my back hurts. It is 1am in the morning and I think Mangy is mad at me for still being...up and on.

I DID IT!

It took me until just now, but I did it! I managed to get that scene re-written AND stay on schedule for my daily NaNo minimum. B) Oh YEAH!

too *yawns* much...excitement....*zz*

Update

Well, I cracked and decided to re-write, yes, re-write the past 800 words. I hate them, and I want them die viciously and I can't transition in my story right unless the old ones are deleted and the new ones are written.

I also sort of think I might have over-estimated NaNo a little. Shocking as it sounds, it doesn't seem too hard to write 1,667 words a day. It's kind of relaxing. I have grown extraordinarily close to Ava and my novel is serious in a way that I realize how I could have ever, ever thought of creating and killing characters off with such ease and how that was funny. They may notbe real characters, but pain is part of the world. And I am kind of ashamed I ever made fun of it in writing.

It's painful to write painful situations for Ava, it really is, and at times I feel close to tears for what all my character is going through. But I don't feel like it is my fault. I feel more like a helpless bystander committed to write down what I am seeing.

This is weird, but, well, I am enjoying my story in that I feel it has more purpose than just something I wanted out of my head and on paper.

Current Music: Going Under-Evanescence. Over and over actually, it's perfect for the scene I'm writing.
Current Mood: Dramatic

I MADE IT!

So it's only the first day. But I have hit the needed word count for today! :D

That is all. :)

Thoughts

Well, ever since my sister posted that thing yelling at me for my negativity, I have talked to Kal about this as well.

If you offer no hope...what do you have left? We can't just tell people
there's a problem. We have to offer them the Solution. Jesus and His salvation
and the hope that comes with that. - Kal

She is so right. In the Prestige, a theme in there was, "you just make something disappear, you must make it reappear."

You can't have one thing without the other.

A hopeless book, or story is less realistic than a "happily ever after" book. Why? Because there is hope, hope of Him.

Now, originally I was going to post my prologue on here. But that is so depressing and hopeless and, well, you get the picture. I am not posting it until the end is written.

Prologue

*cringe* Oi. My prologue right now is so incredibly painful to write. I never thought I would feel this...emotional over writing something. It hurts and I want to cry almost. I have always wanted to write something like this, but at the moment, realizing the depth of what I am writing. I want to incorporate emotion, and I think I'm doing a good job, but I *shrugs*

I don't know.

So it has begun...

Well, I am pounding away at it at last. Happiness reins in my heart, but as usual, not in my story or my characters. I have always had this slightly irritating realist streak in me. (Hehe, so maybe more than a streak...) And in my stories, the negative ending will most likely be the outcome.

I have realized that I oftentimes kill or imprison my characters in the end because it leaves a harder impact.

Now I am not saying this will or won't be the ending of my NaNo, but I decided I needed to say something about it.

My mom has said, "Why can't you write about...butterflies, or puppies or something..."

I can't, because it's not me. It's not real. People either see all the dark in the world, or try to ignore it and see the good.

This world is Satan's kingdom. There is more evil in it than there is good.

And, the words come out thus.